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2021年终总结

2021年终总结

很多人称这一年为被偷走的一年,于我而言,却意义非凡。是重大的转折,又仿佛是日出时分,朝霞最亮,最广阔,拥有能够扩展整个天空的野心的时刻。

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Final Week

Final Week

从纽约回来之后,立马就进入了期末考试周。周二回来,周五就进行了第一场期末考试,时间过的真快。但确实是不太适应Thanksgiving和Winter break间隔如此之近。

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Pre-Thanksgiving
随记

随记

哇,不知不觉就已经快到期末了。回顾这一学期,真的是经历了非常多的第一次。但或许还不是做总结的时候,就先从这周开始吧。

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天气转凉

天气转凉

又一周过去了。怎么说,仔细想想这周好像并没有发生什么有趣的事情,或是极其枯燥无味的事情。真的像是从指尖流过的时间,无法察觉。

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Halloween
It has been a long long time

It has been a long long time

哇,确实很久没有写博客了。半年真的只是弹指一挥间。

也许连我自己也预料不到,已然在地球的另一端了。新的国度,新的生活,新的学校,新的一切,我充满激动。虽说如今也过去了两个多月,我始终内心有一种无法抑制的好奇与激动驱使。

我想先说回以前。这个暑假,绝不是最难忘的暑假,也绝非最乏味的一个暑假,直到现在内心仍然充满着复杂的情感,我想去用浅薄的语言去描述,却做不到。这个暑假,像是做了一切应该在这个暑假做的事情,去看望了小学初中高中老师,去真正跟朋友们玩遍了整个西安,去见到了想见到的所有人,画上了所有该画上完美句号。令我最意外的竟是学会了开车。不在于拿驾照的难度,只是单纯享受驾驶的乐趣。我总是感叹于时间飞逝,自己还未有一个成年人的心智、决策、经历却已然成为了成年人。唯独学会开车,真真实实地证明了我拥有了一项成年人该拥有的技能。坐在车里,系好安全带,手握方向盘,总感觉自己成熟了几分。能够驱车和朋友们去山里农家乐,也是让我感到最开心的一件事。

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申请季的选择

申请季的选择

申请季结束了,彻底结束了,终于终于可以松一口气了。

短短的两个月,却充满着压力、痛苦与崩溃边缘的徘徊。也算是成人之际,社会现实给我上的一课吧。我认识到了真正的冷暖,好坏与纠葛。这远是超乎我所想象的。

很庆幸,总算有了好结果,春光明媚。杜克大学是我的最终选择,也是我最平静的选择。难忘的恰不是这次抉择,而是第一次给予我信心与肯定的那个早晨。

准时起床,洗漱完毕,穿好衣服,双手合十,像极了一个虔诚的信徒,却不知道信的是什么。或许是自己,又是家人。打开伯克利的portal,平静地登陆,Congratulations!赫然写在屏幕的中间,我怔住了。右手食指颤抖着滑了几下鼠标滚轮。确定了,是真的,我被伯克利录取了!没有人能想象我有多么激动,甚至一分钟前的自己也无法想象。我开始呐喊,尖叫,朝着屏幕,朝着窗外,朝着接通电话的母亲那端。我要让看不起我的人,失信于我的人,放弃于我的人看一看,无论如何,我做到了。我不管,我做到了。我想打破每一扇窗户,我想更大声地喊出来,我想让所有的所有都听见。我就是这么挣脱理性。

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小小少年

小小少年

好久没有这么强烈的表达欲了,又想记录些什么。

自己平常是从不会看b站的,b站总会给我一种过度娱乐化的感觉,自己也只有平常亟需要纯粹的搞笑视频来放松的时候,才会点开b站。

当然,不可否认我也是跟着b站的学习视频才学了java,顺利拿到了AP CSA 5分。但今天无意点开的一个视频,着实改变了我的认知。

看到《小小少年》的封面像极了VEX机器人,我便点了进去。原来是FRC,自己也了解过一些,这是一项比VEX更加烧钱,耗费时间精力但收获更大的国际赛事。

影片开始,人大附中的名号遍不绝于耳。我开始习惯性地批判起来:为何这部纪录片要关注宇宙第一高中?这样的教育资源和机会是绝大多数的同龄人所无法触及的,我不明白这个影片的意义在哪里。

说起来也奇怪,不知不觉我就完全将这种想法抛在了脑后,更多的,是对镜头内容产生的深深的共鸣。影片中的程序员,像极了我的经历。诚然我深知自己不是可以和他比肩的天才少年,但我们有着相同的热爱,相同的遭遇,解决过类似的问题,享受过那份独属于我们的成就感。当然,还有另外一位天才,机械结构搭建的妙手。我脑海里闪过了很多身边的人,向他一样,却又不够像他。就像我不够像第一位天才一样。

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Last Spring Festival with Family

Last Spring Festival with Family

The year of OX, the last Spring Festival I could spend time with family members together. In my childhood memory, the New Year was full of happiness, mostly sounds of firecrackers… However, as growing up I find less and less interest and meaningful this traditional festival is. It soon became a period of blank. Nothing much I could do. Yet, this year, is completely different for me.

My mom was the first person reminded me of the importance of this year. She planned a lot of places to go where we never had available time to visit together.

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Application Season

Application Season

Hey there, long time no see.

I’ve skipped the review of robotics competition in December, 2020 review and more things that have stayed on my pocket notes for months. I apoligized but I really couldn’t allocate some time to do so because of the anxious, intense, formiddable(there’s more) application season.

But I learned a lot.


I have to say I’ve never been so tierd at any moment in my life. I thought it would be a regular semester for me, just with some extra works on application essays and other stuff. However, I definitely underestimated the workload and energy of it.

Though I have applied for Stanford Summer Institute in the beginning of 2020 all by myself, with 8+ application essays, this time I still felt like a completely new challenge for me.

When writting essays, I want to eagerly find some real points that I could match with the school I applied for, which costs time, a lot of time… My conselor told me, “just search on its website, found some courses and research areas, and then everything done.” I don’t think so, however. I believe the more time I invested in truly researched the school, the more possibility I will be accepted. I cannot accept myself submitting essays without staying overnight for several times.


My mood

I always recognized myself as a positive and optimistic person, but not this time. My mood was changed dramatically within a day-time, which influenced me from each and every aspects of my life including school works, coding and especially writing applicaiton essays. Self-doubts are common these days.

And to be honest, I encountered some unpleasant things. 3 times of failure in taking TOEFL really distroyed my mind. I nearly gave up. And until now I still don’t have a great score. I just hope all my efforts and pain experienced in writing essays could compensate the negative effects it brings to me.

Seeing my classmates received their dream offers, I am really happy for them. Also I am really upset for myself. Their futures journeys are somehow well-prepared while I am still seeking for opportunities and waiting.


There are still so many things I would like to share on my blog, yet 3 school essays are still needed to be done. /(ㄒoㄒ)/~~

I just hope universities and colleges I applied for could really understand my experience and ambitions through my application.

Good luck to myself and all fellow applicants!

TENET

TENET

Tenet is an amazing movie with wonderful stories and deep meanings. I am a person never watching a single movie twice, but I did watch Tenet twice. Each time it brought me surprises. It’s hard to understand, and I haven’t fully understood yet. However, when watching Tenet, it feels like listening to a piece of music with English lyrics. I may not be able to get the meaning of the lyrics the singer sings, but it doesn’t affect my mood and enjoyment. The same goes for this movie. I can’t figure out how time flows, but I do feel excitement and nervousness following the step of the characters.

Destiny

Not everyone believe in destiny. In this movie, in some way, proves the destiny of each human beings. We all have our faith and mission. Neil probably knew he would die of helping the younger protagonist, he insists to do it without hesitancy.

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八佰 The Eight Hundred

八佰 The Eight Hundred

Before


Tomorrow I’ll have a TOEFL test to take and I chose to hang out with my friend and see a movie. All because I was too anxious about the test. I am trying my best to relax and smooth my nerve.

Supposedly we were going to see Harry Porter since I never watched the series before and it’s a good chance for me to take a look. However, we decided to see the Eight Hundred after all.

Before watching, I have no knowledge about the movie. I was sitting in the second row in the theater which is my first time to sit so close that I need to raise my head to see the full screen.

My Feeling

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Spirited Away

Spirited Away

Once You've Met Someone You Never Really Forget Them. It Just Takes A While For Your Memories To Return.

I heard this movie before. In my concept, everybody has watched this movie in their childhood except me. I have no idea about this cartoon movie at all. It was top100 in Douban and IMDB website which interested me and I want to have a look waiting untill a joyful and lesisure time.

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Only Cloud Knows

Only Cloud Knows

“From now on, I’ll drink water so you can drink wine. I’ll eat rice so you can eat meat.”

The words were said by Simon to his bride Jenifer on his wedding, simple, funny but unforgettable for both Jenifer and audience like me.

The whole movie is filled with a sad and gauzy atmosphere which is the key point moving me.

My imagination


To be honest, I am dreaming about my future life every second in my mind: What kind of person I will meet, who will I fall in love with, what is waiting for me? Pure and romantic love is important in my fantasy and I believe it’s even in most adolescents’ fantasy. As a 16-year-old man, it makes me shy but full of hope. However, no one will know what will happen in the future. What I can do is keep going with sustainable curiosity and discover my possibility.

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A touching movie

A touching movie

A moving film – Rudy

Today I cried

I have never imagined that I can be moved so deeply by a particular film. From my childhood, I have watched plenty of films including comedy, science friction, actin, plot… but none of them could make me cry. I even usually laugh at my mother crying while watching some TV series and reality show. However, now , it’s time for me to change my mind. I would like to introduce this film to you, a fantastic one that makes cold me cry.

Introduction

The film I want talk about is called Rudy, which is a famous biographical sports film directed by David Anspaugh. The film is an account of life of Daniel “Rudy” Ruettiger who has been fighting for his football dream by all efforts despite significant obstacle.

Watching by chance

I’m not myself today because of something that even I didn’t know. I simply searched on YouTube to find some introductions and recommendations about some inspirational films. Fortunately, the first text come into view is of course this film Rudy. Therefore, I downloaded it at once watching it.

Something really touch me

I am not going to spoil anything, just a few plots that really impressed me.

On his best friend’s funeral

He was despair and depress when the song begun. Rushing out of the church to cry and cry, to my surprise, he decided to go to Notre Dame University which he appreciated since his birth but nobody believed him could have done that. With no hesitate, no excess grief, he take the bus directly in the cold night.

Standing on the changing room reading the text graved on the wall

After he was allowed to take a job in charge of logistics of football team, he went to work. Once he got there, he looked at the text graved on the wall like a Saint reading the text devoutly. I can see the passion and dream from his words and eyes.

Everyone in the gym cheering for Rudy

After the friend in Rudy’s team first called his name, the voice spreading across the whole gym with everyone no matter if recognized Rudy beginning to cheer for Rudy including his old friends, teammates, family…

My personal feeling

I believed that a good film doesn’t require something spectacular or amazing, just a normal one with an unusual dream like the film. From some extent, Rudy is me, I am Rudy. I see myself on him. I cheer for myself, for my dream.

Rudy

Rudy

At last, some inspiring line for myself:

  • Having dreams is what makes life tolerable
  • In this life you don’t have to prove nothing to nobody except yourself. And after what you’ve done through, if you haven’t done by now, it ain’t gonna never happen. And I guarantee a week won’t go by, you won’t regret walking out letting them get the best of you.
  • My whole life, people have been telling me what I could do and couldn’t do. I’ve always listened to them, believed in what they said. I don’t want to do that anymore.

Rudy raised by his teammates running around the field

Rudy raised by his teammates running around the field

A moving film -- Rudy

A moving film -- Rudy

Today I cried

I have never imagined that I can be moved so deeply by a particular film. From my childhood, I have watched plenty of films including comedy, science friction, actin, plot… but none of them could make me cry. I even usually laugh at my mother crying while watching some TV series and reality show. However, now , it’s time for me to change my mind. I would like to introduce this film to you, a fantastic one that makes cold me cry.

Introduction

The film I want talk about is called Rudy, which is a famous biographical sports film directed by David Anspaugh. The film is an account of life of Daniel “Rudy” Ruettiger who has been fighting for his football dream by all efforts despite significant obstacle.

Watching by chance

I’m not myself today because of something that even I didn’t know. I simply searched on Youtube to find some introductions and recommendations about some inspirational films. Fortunately, the first text come into view is of course this film Rudy. Therefore, I downloaded it at once watching it.

Something really touch me

I am not going to spoil anything, just a few plots that really impressed me.

On his best friend’s funeral

He was despair and depress when the song begun. Rushing out of the church to cry and cry, to my surprise, he decided to go to Notre Dame University which he appreciated since his birth but nobody believed him could have done that. With no hesitate, no excess grief, he take the bus directly in the cold night.

Standing on the changing room reading the text graved on the wall

After he was allowed to take a job in charge of logistics of football team, he went to work. Once he got there, he looked at the text graved on the wall like a Saint reading the text devoutly. I can see the passion and dream from his words and eyes.

Everyone in the gym cheering for Rudy

After the friend in Rudy’s team first called his name, the voice spreading across the whole gym with everyone no matter if recognized Rudy beginning to cheer for Rudy including his old friends, teammates, family…

My personal feeling

I believed that a good film doesn’t require something spectacular or amazing, just a normal one with an unusual dream like the film. From some extent, Rudy is me, I am Rudy. I see myself on him. I cheer for myself, for my dream.

Rudy

Rudy

At last, some inspiring line for myself:

  • Having dreams is what makes life tolerable
  • In this life you don’t have to prove nothing to nobody except yourself. And after what you’ve done through, if you haven’t done by now, it ain’t gonna never happen. And I guarantee a week won’t go by, you won’t regret walking out letting them get the best of you.
  • My whole life, people have been telling me what I could do and couldn’t do. I’ve always listened to them, believed in what they said. I don’t want to do that anymore.

Rudy raised by his teammates running around the field

Rudy raised by his teammates running around the field

Summer vacation starts now

Summer vacation starts now

A colorful semester has gone

A lot of words I want to say… This period of time I studied and lived in International Course Campus really impressed me. I never imagined that I would met a group of people who are talented and friendly in my freshman. When I first came here, I was very enlightend but of course with a little nervous. However, the enthusiasm of students and teachers made me energetic and full of hope towards the future.

Super massive activities

There were many meaningful and unforgettable events and activities have been held this semester. Not only broadening my horizon but also building a bridge between the guys who have the same dream and interest with me.

I firstly picked up VEX Robotics competition which I had learned and fell in love with before. The same program but different people. I met Jessica, a very talented girl in our team, who is good at writing building log and the most important I think is that she treats everthing careful and make 100% efforts in. She is an example for me and there are many things I can learn from her.

What’s more, I participated in NSDA debate. To be honest, it was my first time to express my own views about a social problem detaily in the face of others, even in English. It was a big challenge but I also learned a lot from it. I will never forget the moment that we beat the opponents ranking the first place temporarily.

Also, taking part in many Discipline Competition such as Math, Chemistry. For instance, In the preparation of the ARML, I came into contact with the Team Match which is brand new for me. I really enjoyed the process that thinking and dicussing with others together including relay rounds.

graduation ceremony

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The last event that I had in my freshman is the graduation ceremony. ( I mean graduated from senior I to senior II) There was a video edited by my classmates reviewing the whole years about our class. Although I came here later instead at the very beginning, I was moved by it. I am glad and pleasured to be a member of Foundation III. Maybe we will not be appered as a unity once more, but we were once a unity. It’s enough for us to keep in touch with each other and perish the friendship forever.

A unpredictable vacation starts now

I need a plan about my valuable vacation

There is no doubt that I will have my first TOEFL test this vacation, and also I need to work hard to reach the highest score as possible as I can.

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I *want to put my general plan here because I hope there are someone who can take it and supervise me. Also, because I put it on my own blog, I would be more careful and serious about these tasks and do not be lazy frequently.*

[ ] Every day at least 3 pieces of TOEFL Reading passages
[ ] Every day at least 3 pieces of TOEFL Listening materials

  • Every day using app “Lingo Champ” to practice my spoken English
  • Every week writing at least 1 pieces of blog.
  • Every week doing exercices at least 3 times.
  • Everyday do some reading at leat 20 min.
  • To be continued…

*I hope to get your supervision. If you see these, please leave a message below. Your words will definately encourage and urge me to move forword!*

I want to go back to this blog at the end of this vacation to see wheather I would have finish these tasks.

我的2018

刷新


2018年,终是不平凡的一年。

身处在新旧交替的此刻,脑海里跃现着2018年的点点滴滴,汗水与泪水、希望与失望,成功与失败……仿佛都没有那么重要了,重要的是此刻,经历时间的冒险,我终于来到了这里,来到了2019年的启幕。

也许,我还是中考彻夜未眠的我,却也一笔一划地书写出了青春最美的篇章;也许,我还是电脑前苦思冥想的我,却一字一字敲击出了梦想坚强的力量;也许,我还是初次坐在高中教室里的我,满是对未来的憧憬。时间,总是动人的力量,一切仿佛都在上一秒刚刚发生,另一切却又像是在未知的下一秒即将发生。

征程总是在路上,希望总是在远方。犹记得备战中考的日子,犹记得与同学之间相互激励,相互进步的每一天。当记忆被时间模糊,历久弥新的是这美好的情谊,我相信,对我而言,这是一笔珍贵的财富,不再的财富。而如今,向往与憧憬变为了现实,我来到了这里,来到了高新一中。迎着改革开放四十周年的春风,我也踏上了新的征程,迎来了新的挑战。

热爱我的热爱。中考后的第二天,我来到了这里,结识了信息学竞赛的学长们,在教练的指导下开始了新的学习。计算机科学,像是一座冰山缓缓突破海平面,从视野里一个点到覆盖了整个视野,有如此多的新知等待我去探索,此刻,心潮澎湃。我的热爱,能够更深地热爱。我坚信,这份热爱终将成为梦想的锋芒。

道阻且长,行则将至。茫然,始终伴随着我;舍得,总是让我无措。我依旧在努力寻找那个最好的自己,在时间的平衡木上找到最佳的那一点,在情绪的池沼里小心前行,在思维的隧洞中向深处继续挖掘。需要去做的,还有很多很多,奔跑不能停止,生活不止眼前的苟且,还有诗和远方。

任何组织和个人,达到某个临界点时,都需要自我刷新。拥抱同理心,培养‘无所不学’的求知欲,以及建立成长型思维是拥抱智能时代自我刷新的三个重要步骤”。

这是我的偶像,微软CEO萨提亚·纳德拉在《刷新》一书中所提到的。

刷新,并不意味着推翻重来,而是有目的、有针对性地调整。2018年,微软公司通过“刷新”,超越苹果成为了全球市值最高的公司。2019年,更是我需要刷新的一年。

在这里,刷新态度,刷新认知,刷新属于我的未来。

李昊锦
2018年12月31日